There's something you don't understand Heartbreak let me know that she was my main bitch a long time ago That we were attached at the marrow of sorrow Bone blood She let me know I was born in her womb and of her flesh on a dusty back road, in a back seat that smelled of liquor and burned out cigarettes That the litter on the back alleys of my mind was too sullied beautiful to ignore She had to sink her teeth in to taste my poison I came to be after the devil ejaculated his seed in my 11 year old mentality and gave life to an unwanted monster I've nurtured with twisted affection ever since I died that day and came back with Heartbreak riding shotgun in my soul, but it was unknown so no one mourned my 9/11 My innocence suffered a twin tower affliction, but I smothered it with false confidence so no one would notice My shadow was so convincing I guess that’s why they didn’t go to war for me Why I was courted and conquered by Heartbreak so easily I became my own warped version of a soldier with a chip on shoulder the size of Atlas Edges jagged enough to cut anyone within range to smell the fumes of my devastation See I've wanted to be with Love so long, and she's presented her self in many forms But they could never be faithful to this little black girl with a beehive in her chest It took me years to realize that Love is just my side bitch That's why she's always so temporary Fleeting like rolling stone fathers and a prostitute's fantasy of marriage vows She allows me to give her priceless things like my time She pretends she's going to stay then walks out on the heels of my lover with my pride Making me wonder why I keep trying See, I hate to call Love out of her name I know hoe is such a strong word, but she so freely gives herself to the undeserving And you know they say you can't turn a hoe into a house wife Yet I've spent most of my life balancing her pedestal between my shoulder blades like the night sky cradles the moon Waiting for Love to claim her position But who wants to play second or be a backup? Love must know that Heartbreak has my shit sewed up And that bitch has never been one to play fair She be blood in, blood out Apparently, a main bitch's role is to always stay down Maybe that explains why she won't leave Perhaps Heartbreak knows there ain't nobody gone love to hate her like me #yeyodapoet #melanieyeyocarter #savage #anticsofapoet#diaryofadayumpoet #RESPECTMYTHICK
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